Not a paid member.
Have been involved in the lifestyle for many years off and on, between vanilla relationships.
Keep returning to this site as well as another, to stay in touch with the lifestyle and the community.
Currently in a vanilla relationship, . Even though living the vanilla life, I live my life to serve the man I am with; every day finding ways to serve boyfriend, doing things around the house in a way that I can imagine a Master would have me do them. I always dress to be accessible, I have never denied the any man I live with. To have a Dom that can give me daily tasks, to punish when I have done wrong and to reward when I have done right. I have most of the early daytime hours alone, and sometimes have time on the weekends. I am shy in many ways, but if one knows how to get past that, then much is possible.
Would like to start slow, get to know the right person, and go from there. But I will not start or agree to serve anyone right from the start.
Many like to call me names, humiliate me; except I am not into that, it only makes me mad and it does effect my self esteem. Childish... I know.. but it is who I am. I have always wanted a "Daddy" type, but I can only seeing that working in person. I have suffered with depression all my life; would be nice to have someone that understands depression and how to work with it. (Because I need help.)
I have done many things to myself to help with the frustration and cravings to "feel", to have some release.
I like to write D/s erotica, sometimes need a muse..
Would like to have some friends and maybe a mentor... not a bully...
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