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I am pretty new to this community.
I'm not very experienced in fetishism,
but I'm looking to explore where my boundaries lie
and to possibly make a few of fantasies I have had
become more than just quiet scenes playing behind my eyes.
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I know, I know...
This is why you are here ;)
I am open to pretty much anything...
I guess it would be easier to say what I am not interested in..
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Poop
Throw up
Serious injuries
Degrading names
Crossing communicated boundaries
Pushing/asking for more than I am ready/willing to give..
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Hot wax
Restraints
I like doing secret sexual things in public
like when it's hard for me to control myself,
but I have to so that no one catches me
Spanking
Daddy role-play
(I guess I do like older guys...
I may have a daddy complex...
Tho you should prolly be closer to my age than my parents' age :P )
Body painting
Food-related things...
(like chocolate, fruits, honey)
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Permission to come...
Edging...
Trying as hard as I can not to come..
that's a fun game.
Voice control...
Trying as hard as I can not to make a sound...
That's also a fun game.
Being restrained...
Multiple sensory input...
Maybe blindfolded
To open up and focus on more than my sight.
Being scared...
I'm not afraid of anyone usually...
But I am afraid of the dark lol
Mirrors...
I am shy... it's hard to look.
Making me say things...
Once again.. I am shy.
And stubborn. Lol.
Play-fighting...
I secretly want you to win
Patience...
Let me want you.
Let me miss you.
Let me come to you.
It's worth the wait, I promise.
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(Because I am a real live person ;) )
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I play the piano and sing a whole bunch and dance...
I am always searching for new music that tickles my fancy
(I suppose this is a theme in every area of my life)
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Android Lust
Fiona Apple
Bjork
The Civil Wars
CocoRosie
Collide
Delain
Diablo Swing Orchestra
Die Antwoord
Die So Fluid
Elis
Esperanza Spalding
The Gathering
Grimes
Imelda May
Kimbra
Leaves' Eyes
Otep
Rasputina
The Right Now
Stream of Passion
To-mera
Veruca Salt
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I am very creative..
I love to draw, paint, take pictures
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I love to read.
I love the horror and fantasy genres most.
I suppose I do also like sad books
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Like I said I love horror.
Although, I do get scared very easily...
My imagination just runs with it :P
I also like sci-fi and fantasy and anime and anything strange :P
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Donnie Darko
Mirror Mask
The Neverending Story
Ace Ventura: When Nature Calls
Alice in Wonderland (The one with Gene Wilder and Whoopi Goldberg)
Serenity
What Dreams May Come..
Lost in Translation
Her
Interview with a Vampire
The Fourth Kind
Repo! The Genetic Rock Opera
Totoro
Spirited Away
(Actually all of Myazaki's films)
Warm Bodies
Black Swan
Amelie
American Beauty
Suckerpunch
Chappie
Wall-e
Into the Woods
Wreck-it Ralph
Edward Scissorhands
Phantom of the Opera
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I'm kind of a foodie :)
I love good food!
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Sushi
Mushrooms
Salmon and lox and bagels
Chicken piccata
Burgers
Yellow curry
Chicken saag
Cucumbers
Avocados
Cheese
Chocolate mousse
Peanut butter noodles
Raspberries
Key lime greek yogurt
(Yummmm... I'm making myself hungry haha!)
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Hopefully this doesn't turn anyone off...
I think it is important to get some insight into my mind and history...
And this is the internet...
Isn't it always easier to admit things to a screen anonymously...
Than to speak about it in real life, for real ears to hear...
For real eyes to see my rawness
For the real cruelty of people to judge and dismiss...
I'm hoping there isn't much of that on a site like this
That would seem very strange
A site full of strangeness
To encounter judgement :P
So...
I did experiment a bit with ropes and restraints, gags...
Only a few things...
I have self-diagnosed myself as a sex addict.
This is based on my first real experience with bdsm...
It was with someone who I didn't trust...
And def didn't deserve it...
But because I was so curious,
I allowed it to happen.
Curiosity kills the kitty, right? =^.^=
The next day,
I went home with marks...
And my mom asked me how I got them. o.o
It really scared me because I didn't realize it was actually hurting me.
Of course, I didn't tell my mom what really happened, but I actually looked into Sex A.A.
I know that seems a bit pathetic...
But it was my first real taste.
I am actually quite dominant in most areas of my life
I really wish I didn't have to take control in every single situation. :-/
I want to be able to open up to someone
And trust them enough to give in
Let them have control
Without the thought that something will go horribly wrong.
This is quite difficult for me to do!
I have a quiet and shy and reserved exterior
(I would be the perfect librarian character ;) ),
Inside, though... I am quite the opposite!
I have a very passionate soul
I am very willful and stubborn...
I respect myself...
So I expect you to respect me as a real person..
And I will respect you
If you want to try to be dominant...
Be prepared for a challenge
I am not the type of submissive
Who will just give myself ever so willingly to just anyone
As a Dom...
You need to prove to me that you are worth the title.
I know my worth.
I know I have a lot to give.
I need someone who is also strong
(Physically, emotionally, intellectually)
Not someone who is really a baby,
Hiding behind a mask,
Who just wants to tell someone what to do..
(Funny cuz I am wearing lots of masks in all my pics!
But this is more a metaphorical mask to hide insecurities...
Not just to keep anonymity)
Finally, I want something REAL
(Not just online or unfesibly long-distance).
I don't want to be just a fantasy
Or something to be easily thrown away after use
I am a narwhal..
Not a unicorn...
I am real.
I want a real and hopefully lasting connection on a deep level
I'm understand that sometimes things don't work out,
But that is the goal.
I want someone who can push me to new levels,
And that will not happen if you are not, at least, on mine.
End rant. :)
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