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Dangerous Dreamers
Posted:Jan 19, 2017 5:47 am
Last Updated:Mar 17, 2017 2:52 pm

Love this!

All people dream,

but not equally.

Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their mind,

wake in the morning to find that it was vanity.

But the dreamers of the day are dangerous people,

For they dream their dreams with open eyes,

And make them come true.

- D.H. Lawrence
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Posted:Mar 16, 2017 9:27 am
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2017 8:22 pm

When I land on my ass I always get back up!

I have a great deal of padding back there so I don't get too badly hurt when it happens.

And that's probably why I'm so spankable...

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Nothing has changed.
Posted:Jul 10, 2017 7:50 pm
Last Updated:Jul 19, 2017 7:04 am

Still have to look at all those dick pics...goodness...haha.

But anyway I'm back. Had some wonderful experiences and still am.

I will express again because I'm living again. Feeling good about who I am again.

The knock downs I had I've dealt with, well not alone because I had a wonderfully amazing Dom who helped me deal with the issues I had with the guy that messed with me. And the one who was trying to mess with me.

So my thoughts and process will show once again and will read and enjoy all my friends again.

Almost Funny
Posted:Mar 21, 2017 5:29 am
Last Updated:Mar 21, 2017 5:30 am

This is actually almost funny. I had an enlightening experience yesterday and this so close, depicts my experience.


When Judgement appears in your day, then know that you have followed the course of faith well, and your rewards are about to come in. This is a card of rebirth, of an injection of new energy into an old situation. But with Judgement you receive not only clarity but answers on your journey thus far as to your lessons and your blessings. When Judgement card appears, your day of judgement is upon you. It may not happen overnight, continue your exercise of patience. But it will happen. Your day of absolution is here, and you are about to come full circle on a key matter.


The symbolism found on the Judgement card shows us the picture of the final judgement day. This is a card with strong karmic connections, and brings the message that all will come full circle in due time. If forgiveness is an issue in your life, then Judgement arrives to say, all matters will flow under the bridge in due time. If you have been sowing your karmic oats well, Judgement says, you are about to experience your payoff. Things do not happen quickly when Judgement arrives, but they do happen. Patience and faith in the higher order of the Universe is advised when Judgement arrives. This card also brings the message that a sense of inner rebirth, and even absolution from the past is entering into play in this card.
Happy Spring
Posted:Mar 20, 2017 6:42 am
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2017 8:41 pm

Happy First Day of Spring all you kinksters!

Feel absolutely amazing this morning. Woke with a smile on my face and a spring in my step...

It's going to be a beautiful day I just know it!
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I Raised Her Right.
Posted:Mar 19, 2017 10:54 am
Last Updated:Mar 20, 2017 7:18 am

I grew up in a time where things were so very simple. No internet, no cell phones...I loved that life. It was freedom.

I grew up on a farm, roamed the fields (I was a tomboy/book worm), swam in the river, hunted deer (I use to be a very good shot... ), played every sport I was allowed, drank beer with the farm hands (had my first beer at 15), and just totally loved my life.

The people I grew up around were the most respectful people I know. I always heard please and thank you, you're welcome...etc...etc.

My first job was as a cashier in a grocery store in a small town I and my husband moved to. Everyone knew everybody else and you heard a lot of yes Sir, yes Ma'am and it grew on me immediately. I must say though that I did call my Dad Sir at times too.

So as I grew it stuck with me. I think it as a sign of respect as it should be.

Today everyone rushes. No time to say a few respectful words.

My daughter is in Management, I walked into her store one day last week and I heard her explain to a new cashier that even if the customer seems rude or snobby... ... her words, that she had to be polite and thank them...etc.

A male customer, around my age, walked in and I stepped back, my daughter greets him with this, "Good day Sir, I'm ______ if you need anything please just ask." And his face lights up and tells her "Thank you _____." I think she actually made his day.

I just realized that I truly did raise my daughter right!

Posted:Mar 19, 2017 12:28 am
Last Updated:Mar 19, 2017 9:24 pm

I know I’m not perfect; I make mistakes just like anyone else and I learn from them. I may expect a great deal from the One that I decide to give my focus to but in this lifestyle you have to expect certain things for not just your safety, but for those of who you are connected to whether they be family, friends, or acquaintances.

When your security and safety are threatened you need to reach out to those who you know will give you the proper advice and guidance. Learning the hard way is not the best way and you really do need more than a safe call. You need to know that who you are communicating with is being totally open and honest with you. And how do we do that? With time, patience, persistence, and not jumping head first into the first relationship that makes you feel something.

I’ve been in the lifestyle for over 30 years now. From the time I was 19 until just about 7 years ago I lived it 24/7. I started with my Domina (13 yrs), and when her time with me was up she found a Male Dominant for me to serve (6 yrs). He, what he called aged out, then helped me find another Male Dominant to serve (10 yrs) whom is the one that I separated from over a year ago, during my time with this dominant he lost interest in playing after 4 years. Therefore I was deprived for 6 of the 10.

I was never left on my own; I didn’t have to search for a Dominant to serve because I was always passed on to one whom was chosen for me. Of course I was given a choice but my Dominants knew me so well that the ones they chose were always the ones whom were perfect for me to serve.

So I may be a bit naive because of the fact that I never had to search for Her/Him. I will say this though. I won’t serve a Domina 24/7 again because my desire for a female Dominant is no longer. I loved my Domina with all my heart and when she decided our time was up it broke my heart. So to serve any Domina/Domme there wouldn’t be a chance that she could take the place of Her. Being the naive submissive that I am, I’ve learned that I can be very gullible and give my trust too easily. I will not be doing that again. Not in real time!

Discussing certain subjects with a friend of mine he said something to me that made me think deeper about my search and I must agree with him. “......the notion that because the alt lifestyle is on the fringe (a bit) that it is somehow vulnerable and illegitimate.” He also mentioned that this type of thinking can get a person in serious trouble.

Here’s another quote from our conversation that also struck a serious note with me!

“ have an inherent right to have your dignity respected by all persons (by law) and you have the inherent right to a safe environment free from harm or threat of harm (again, by law) and you have a right to live without fear. You have an inherent right of association to make friends with whomsoever you choose (by law)......”

So when I read his email it almost slapped me in the face. I literally cried, because of how much he cares and because with my level of intelligence you would think that I would know all this. In all honesty some of the most intelligent people can be very stupid. I realized just recently how naive I am and if it weren’t for those who I’ve been friends with almost right from when I started back on alt, I would be lost.
Posted:Mar 17, 2017 10:54 pm
Last Updated:Mar 20, 2017 11:32 am

OMG...I did something really silly tonight.
Something I never imagined I would do.
Something I never imagined I could do.
Something I am not going to tell you about.

But I’m so thrilled and excited about it because it makes me feel so good about myself that I’m just bursting!

I feel like a silly young woman who had her first amazing orgasm ever.

I was so not being myself, or what I thought was myself.

I allowed myself to let go.

I needed a distraction.

I got a distraction.

I had FUN!

It’s been so long since I had that kind of FUN that I don’t remember it feeling this good!

Green Beer
...... whoohoo ......
Just kidding I don’t drink beer!

Posted:Mar 17, 2017 3:07 pm
Last Updated:Mar 19, 2017 5:47 pm

How is a best friend like a 4-leaf clover?
Because they are hard to find and lucky to have.

Had a really rough few days. Stressful! My job is coming to an end very soon but it really doesn't matter too much because I'll be moving to Calgary. I've actually put my move date off (a recommendation) and keeping it a secret. You won't know it till I'm actually there...

Talking to the friends I've made on here has taken my mind off of everything that's been stressing me out. I'm grateful that I made these friends and I will not be giving you all up for anything. So any Dom interested in me needs to understand that my friends are just that...FRIENDS!

I didn't realize that I made such an impression on some of you and I'm just glad that I didn't give up like I was planning on doing. Makes one feel good when you can rely on people, even those who you haven't even met yet, to take your mind off the rough patches in life.

Thank you and you all know who you are!
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Happy St. Paddy's Day...NOT Patty!
Posted:Mar 17, 2017 1:27 pm
Last Updated:Mar 18, 2017 4:49 pm


I thought since I'm part Irish I would share some of my ancestral humor...hehe
And I needed a little cheering up too.

St Patrick's Day Pick Up Lines

"Are you from Ireland? Cause when I look at you my penis is Dublin."

"You look magically delicious, and I just happen to be a cereal adulterer."

"Tip o' the Trojan to ye!"

"If you don't sleep with me, the leprechauns have already won."

"How'd you like to help put the Irish Spring back into me shillelagh?"

"Well, lass, we're the only ones still standing. How about it?"

"Lassie, it's your ancestral duty to drive the snake out of my pants!"

"You've already had six Guinness draughts? Brilliant!"

"I don't have four leaves, but if you pluck me, I'll give you luck!"

"Well you caught me lassie! Now I can grant ye one wish, as long as it involves tongue!"


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