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Posted:Jun 13, 2016 11:41 am
Last Updated:Aug 16, 2017 4:01 am
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These messages will be private ... set up for those who can't email or standard members ... only between me and you... No worries ... ask Me anything ....
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Get Up ALREADY ..... Or Not ...
Posted:Aug 10, 2017 4:35 pm
Last Updated:Aug 19, 2017 1:06 pm
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It's A Very Funny Predicament .... Really...

I've Been Living With My Handsome Tattoo Guy .... and I'm Not Sure How I'm Supposed To Wake Him Up .... In The Mornings ... He Likes To See Me Off To Work...

I Remember Him Saying Not To Touch His Feet To Wake Him .... So I Stayed Away From Feet ....

At First I Woke Him Up ' Gently ' .... Little Touch On His Arm.... And .... Scared The BeJesus Out Of Him !! .... So Next Time... I Just Said ' Are You Ready To Get Up ? ' ... In A Nice Calm Tone ... He Jumped Out Of The Bed... Startled ... Again.... ....And Said... " Omg ,,, You Just Can't Start Talking To Me ... When I'm Dreaming ! " .... So .. I Let Him Go Back To Dreaming ... ( It Musta Been a Damn Good Dream ) ....

I Laughed All The Way To Work .... Maybe Next Time I Should Go Outside The Window and Take Cover ?! ( It's Only Funny When His Hands Aren't Under The Pillow ) He's Like a Child ... Jumping up ... Hands Flinging ... You'd Have To See It ... Too Funny ...

So I'll Go Outside .... And Speak Softly ....or Sing Like An Angel .... Perhaps ... LMAO ...He's A Funny Man....
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Are You Bitter ?
Posted:Aug 9, 2017 3:56 am
Last Updated:Aug 12, 2017 3:29 am
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Over The Years ... I've Seen Many A Kind Gesture ,,, Taken For Granted ...

Many Kind ,, Generous People Have Offered Others A Helping Hand And Sometimes ,,,, Lots Of Times.... It Seems ,,, Others Use Their Kindness To Their Advantage ... Take ... Take ... Take ....

I Was Wondering ....Has This BeCome More Prevalent In My Old Age ... Or Are There More People Taking Advantage ?

Have People In Age .... Become Lazy ,,, Bitter ,,, Vengeful ... Heartless ... Etc...? I've Noticed So Many People That No Longer Wanna Really ' Earn ' a Living .... Hoping For A ' Windfall ' Of Sorts ..... Taking ' Advantage ' ...

I'm Never Gonna Give Up On Human Kindness .... But I Do Wonder ....
I Saw A Homeless Man Actually Refuse a Free Sandwich .... That Seemed ' Odd ' To Me ....
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A NEW Challenge ....
Posted:Aug 7, 2017 3:21 am
Last Updated:Aug 19, 2017 1:06 pm
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I Have Lost 40 Pounds ..... Yeah !!

You Wonder Where All That Weight Was ? Evidently ,,, I Hid It Well .... For A Long Time....Lol.... It Was In My Whole Body .... 5 pounds of Titties ... 5 pounds of Back ... Five Pounds of Thighs .... and 10 Pounds of Ass .... ... so on and so on...

I Feel So Much Better ... Only Now Comes The Wrinkles and Sagging Skin .... I'm No Young Chick anymore

So ... I'm Not Feeling So Beautiful Naked Anymore .... Not That I Ever Was Even Close To Being An Exhibitionist Before .... But Seems I Was ok With Posting Pics ... Now I'm Wanting To ' Tone ' Up ... Before Showing Anyone My Weight Loss...

It's So Hard For Me To Believe That I've Slimmed Down To a Size 8 !! Eight .... Maybe 7 ....

I Won't Tell You What Size I Was Wearing 8 Months Ago... LOL.... Some Actually Thought I Was Sexy ( and I Love You For That ) .... Well... Give Me a Couple More Months ... I've Started a Training Sorta Thing .... Inspired So From My .... ( Oh.. Seems I'm Stuck On a Title ) ... My Handsome Skinny Dude ? My Sweety ... ( Dom ... Sir ... Master ... Not Necessary ).... Who Is Doing a Similar Workout ... But Much More Intense ..

For Those Of You Interested I'm Doing a 5 x 5 Exercise Program ... Consisting of ... Squats ... Dead-lifts...OverHead Press ... Barbell Rows ..and Bench Presses ... Starting With 10 Pound Weights and Increasing ....
I Was Amazed That I Didn't Fall On My Butt Doing a Squat ...lol.... It's Been Many Years ... I Actually Put A Stool Behind Me .. Just In Case ..
But .. I Will Continue To Do My Exercises ... Soon I Will Feel Comfortable In Pics Again...
I Bought Myself a Weight Bench and All.... I'm So Excited !!!
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TO BE A LONER .... RECLUSE ....
Posted:Aug 1, 2017 4:43 am
Last Updated:Aug 5, 2017 3:14 pm
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Sometimes .... I'm Forced To Look At My Life And Try To Understand Why I Am Who I Am ....

What I've Noticed Is That I Seem To Make ' Good Reasoning ' Out Of Why I Am So ' Withdrawn ' From People ....

I Preferred To Write My Feelings Down .... Because I ... For Some Reason ... Seem To Actually ' Say ' Things Sorta In The Wrong ' Tone ' Or ' Screw It Up ' ... Verbally ....
Why ? Because I've Spent My Life ' Avoiding ' any ' Real ' Contact With People....

Yes... It's True ... I Was Married and Pregnant at 18 ... Divorced 9 Months Later ... Married an Alcoholic ... basically living and raising kids on my own .... Moved To Florida .... Cared For Dad for Many Years .... Then ... Lived Alone ....

I Enjoyed The Quiet .... The Privacy .... A little too much ....

I Got So Used To My Tranquility ,,,,, I Didn't Even Like The Neighbor Visiting .... Though ,, I Was Always Nice and Friendly .... I'm Sure She Knew All I Wanted To Do Was Get Back To My Computer ....

I Withdrew Myself From People ... Nature .... Society .... Step By Step ... Each Day Getting Better and Better at ' Being a Recluse ' .....

I would Never Have Noticed Had A Man Not Come into My Life That Likes Company .... Likes Noise ... LOL..... Doesn't Care Where I Put The Spatula .....
OMG.... You Say .... No... It's True... I Liked My World Always The Same .... Predictable .... Quiet ... Alone .... Way Too Sad
and I Will Have To Write Later How This Came About ( Or How I Believe It Came About )

I Spoiled Myself ... Alone .... ( Well... Desi and Lucy Were There )
So.... It's Been A Challenge To Try and Adjust to Real Life .... But I Can Admit When I'm Wrong and Try To Relax and Enjoy ....

I've Found a Good Man ... A Happy Man .... That Is Worth Looking Within Myself ... No Matter How ' Difficult ' I May Find It .... No One Is Perfect .... after all ....


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Somehow .... I Wish I Could Share
Posted:Jul 25, 2017 2:57 am
Last Updated:Aug 1, 2017 5:28 am
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When People Are Brought Into My Life .... I Often Wonder Why And If I Was Supposed To Have Learned Something .....

I Do Know That I've Met A Beautiful Artist .... Whose Art Works I Would Have Never Taken The Time To Admire If We Hadn't Met .... A Man That Has ' Created ' Some Very Unique ,,, Interesting ,,,, And Thought Provoking Sculptures ..... Most Not Visible Because Of Overgrown Debris ..... He Doesn't Feel They're Any Big Deal .... He's That Humble ....

We May Not Be Able To Live Together .... But I Will Always Love This Man's Soul ... I Do Hope He Succeeds In Making Other Schulptures That He'd Spoken About ... It Would Be Wonderful If I Could Share Some Pics ... But As To Respect His Privacy .... He Prefers To Remain A Mystery .... I'm Grateful To Have Seen and Experienced .....
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Obstacles ....
Posted:Jul 16, 2017 5:46 am
Last Updated:Jul 17, 2017 10:16 am
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Life Is Full Of Obstacles .... Big And Small .... How Many Obstacles or Hindrances Do We Allow To ' Interrupt ' Life's Journey .... Your Life ...?

How Much Do We Tolerate .... How Much Is ' Ok ' .... ?

I Try So Hard Not To Judge People .... Not To Jump to Conclusions ... Not To ' Compare ' One Human Being With Another ....

But .... Don't We Experience Some Things To ' Learn ' From Them .... ? ! So That We Don't Repeat Mistakes ....

Were They Mistakes ? Were They Our ' Destiny ' ? Were We Put In A ' Position ' For A Reason ?

Ya ... Life's Kinda Complicated .....
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What ' DEFINES ' You....
Posted:Jul 11, 2017 3:23 am
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2017 3:39 am
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Did You Ever Wonder .... If A Stranger Met You ... Let's Say Three Different Times... How Would That Person Describe You ....

I Recently Met a Couple ... Second Time Meeting Them ... SO .. Two Out Of Three ... I Would Describe Them As ' Low Class ,,, Arrogant ... Heavy Drinkers ... With a Side Of Drugs ' .... The Type Of People That I Like To Avoid .... Not Wanting To ' Judge ' anyone... Just Don't Like Drama That Liquor / Drugs .... Usually Produces .... Been Down That Road ... Don't Care To Revisit .... Thank You...

They Seemed To Brag About All Their ' Worldly ' Goods .... I Gathered They Thought a Big House and Such Made Them a Wonderful Contribution to Society .... Everyone Should Love Them ..... I Did Not ...

I Realize A Lot Of People On This Site ' Define ' Me by The Red Fishnet with Titties .... I Hope If A Person In Real Life Met Me I Would Be Described As A Decent ,,, Working .... Kind Human Being .....

I Would Not Want ' Material ' Things ,,, Or Titties,, to Over Rule Any Judgement Of Me .... I'm Not Wanting To ' Impress ' anyone .... I Don't Need To Drink Excessively To Deal With Life Or People ,,, And I Prefer To Stay Clear Of Such ..... I Wanna Be Free To Be Myself .... I Like Being Around Happy People .... But ' Naturally ' Happy .... Not Happy Cause You Have A New Car And A Twelve Pack In the Frig.....
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Everything Has It's Place....
Posted:Jul 10, 2017 4:20 am
Last Updated:Jul 13, 2017 4:41 pm
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I've Been Very Busy ,,, Moving My Things In and Sorting Things Around The House ... Years Of Being a Bachelor Have Caused So Much To Be ' Out Of Place ' ....

I Like Things In ' Order ' ... Makes My Life Easier .... I Want Tools Outside ( my tools belong in my kitchen junk drawer 😉 ).... Dishes Inside ... Etc...

Seems Every Thing Is Scattered ... so ... It's Taking Me a While ... Beings I'm Not Really Moving Very Quickly ... Lol... May Take A Couple Years ...No Worries

I'm Enjoying Every Minute .... I Get To Cook In Between Cleaning and Sorting ... What Else Could a Person Want ?! What I 'Need ' Is Taken Care Of ... Extremely Well ... In Between The Other .... There He Seems Very Organized ... Lol 😙

So... I'm Still In ' Heaven ' Over Here ... Still Having An Internet Issue ... Hope To Be Up and Writing Full Speed Then

Gotta Run....
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What Makes You COMFORTABLE....
Posted:Jul 5, 2017 4:23 am
Last Updated:Aug 19, 2017 1:05 pm
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I Think Everyone Has Different Levels Of Comfort..... Different Things That Bring Us Peace and Harmony .....

For Me ,,,,, It's The Stress Being Lifted From Worrying If Enough Work and Money Would Come In to Make My Bills On Time .... I Prayed The Van Would Stay In One Piece Till I Could Save For Another ..... I Prayed My Old Body Would Keep On Going ....

I Am Not Sure I Can Describe the Huge Weight Off My Shoulders ,,,,, Just a Simple Thing Like A Helping Hand ....
Maybe It Would Help to Tell You... I've Always Did Things ( Life ) Alone ..... I Really Didn't Depend On Anyone... I Preferred It That Way .... I Knew I Could Depend On Myself .... I Knew How I Wanted It Done and Didn't Need Anyone ... Many Years Of This Caused Me To ,,, Not Only Dismiss Anyone That Offered Any Help .... But Continue To Stay In That World Of Solitude ....

I'd Met So Many People That Took Advantage .... I Withdrew From Meeting New Friends as I Grew Older .... I Did Not Have Time To Be Bothered ... I Kept Everyone at a Distance ...

When I Met This ' New ' Guy ...
What Attracted Me Most Was His Confidence .... He Didn't Put On An Act Or Pretend to Be Someone He Wasn't ....
Some Men Feel They Are Upfront and Honest .... But Seems I Always Could Tell Something Was Amiss....
Kinda Took Me Years Of Observing ..... But Some Men Kinda Hide Behind a Role ... Being a Gentleman To Women ,,, Treating Them Like Gold .... But at Home Alone They May Be Secretly a Mean ,,, Self - Centered ... Deceitful ... Very Unhappy Human Being ...

I Was Looking For a Happy Human Being .... Someone That Was Comfortable In Their Own Skin .... So To Say...

I Watched This Guy Walking and Wondered Why He Had A Sorta ' Strut ' When He Walked .... Almost Like a Skip ... He Acted Like He Was Happy .... He Smiled Continuously .... He Laughed All The Time ... He Was Actually Satisfied With Himself and His Company Never Caused Any Drama or Problems ... If Anyone Seemed to Do Something He Didn't Like ,, He Took Care Of It By Talking Calmly and Nicely to Them .... But Sternly .... I Was Waiting For His Temperament to Change ... His Voice To Raise ....Wow... Amazing ... that There Is A Man ' In Control ' Of His Life ... His World ...

Something ' Drew ' Me To This Man From the First Day... I Loved His Laugh ... He Didn't Need to Act Like Someone He Wasn't ...

I Didn't Think I Would Ever Experience Such Content ... I'm Living With Him Now ... I've Not Given Up Any Of My Independence .... He's So Very Comfortable With Me Doing My Own Thing ....

I've Never Had Anyone Help Me Unload Groceries Before .... and Never Expected Help ... Huge Amount of Help... Moving ... I Can't Even Explain What A Joy It Is To See The Puppies So Free and Happy ... They Now Have A Huge Yard To Wander and a New ' Big ' Play Friend .... His Dog's Head Is the Size Of Their Whole Body ... He Will ' Herd ' Them In The House When They Go Towards The Gate ... Lol...

I Am Now Able To Concentrate On More Than The Next Dollar ... I've Stopped Worrying about Little Things ( That Took A While To Adjust to ) .... I Know This Man Has My Back ... As Well As I Have His .... Our Lives Seem To Intertwine and Enhance Each Others.....
I ABSOLUTELY Am Overjoyed !!!
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